An encounter with God

By Violet

When was your last encounter with God? How did you feel? Have you changed since then?

Well, my last encounter with God was last Sunday during a fellowship session in Steven's house. A few of us that consisted of Steven, Jasmine, Wei Qiang, Andy, Eric and my cell leader Celine gathered at Steven's house actually planned to just play around with the guitars and fellowship. But God had other greater plans. Around 6.45pm as soon as Steven came back from sending Jasmine to the MRT station, Celine started playing and praying, and we just started to focus on God and started worshipping. Eric shared something that God impressed on his heart. God was saying to confess all sins, pull down strongholds in life. I broke down. Why? Because I know there are some parts of me that God has not dealt with yet and He wants to deal it with me, but I was not willing for God to deal with them. And partly was because of the disappointments.

Sometimes in life, when things gets good and high, the devil always wants to pull down that feeling and pull down whatever positive feelings and emotions that will leave us feeling down and thus draw away from God. Beginning of this week, God told me something and promised that to happen and the next day it did. My spiritual emotion, trust and faith went up by a notch.

Everything was running smoothly till Saturday when I had an enrolment service committee meeting. There were people in the committee that I cannot work with, because of the past experience I had when I worked with them before. I actually even had a quarrel with them before the meeting and so, that was not so healthy for my spirit. I was judging them. And because I felt so much bitterness because of previous events, I didn't want to forgive them. I couldn't bring myself to. In my heart, I really hated them. I cried before because of what they said to me. And I just couldn't forgive them. The meeting was long and draining, a lot of work hadn't been done, and that too wasn't very beneficial, to both my physical and spiritual body. After the meeting, I tried to rush to church, saw something, someone that didn't make me too happy. By the time I went to church, I tried to ignore and forget what had just happened and went on with my time with God's people. Came Sunday, when Pastor said there are a lot of opposition, I just had to agree.

There are times when you feel like praising God is the last thing that you can. But these are times whereby God breaks your heart and mould you. These are the times where God wants you to be strong and stronger. Every time you feel like this is the end. You are wrong; this is just the beginning of a change for the better person in you. Going to Steven's house to me was just something that I thought would be a short sharing and fellowship then I can go home. But it ended up being a 2-hours long of worship and prayer. It might sound long, but after being refreshed by the Spirit, it is really amazing how once God touched you, you can be so moved in the spirit. And when you are moved by the Spirit, you just need to leave everything to God and then you would be able to experience God daily in your life.

So have a God-led week this week! Even though the devil might want to pull you away from God, take comfort that God is with you and He will strengthen you.