A story told by...AUdRey Aw

"To be honest, every time Friday came, I hoped I could just fall asleep and wake up to Monday again."

For the first 2 weeks at WAC, I felt totally miserable. To be honest, every time Friday came, I hoped I could just fall asleep and wake up to Monday again. But somehow, some unknown force made me turn up. I'm not a new church-goer. However each time after I've been to church for a while I stopped going because I felt so out of place and I just couldn’t bring myself to trust God or anyone.

I know God was there watching over me all my life. Every time I thought I was a goner, He picked me up from the deepest pits and laid me on soft green grass so everything was wonderful again.

Example...

When I was in secondary school, my parents were on so bad terms they nearly got a divorce. Dad was seldom home. Mum was always threatening suicide. And because of the quarrels, my results suffered badly. I didn't care about my studies and I was associating with people who were wasting their lives away. I was the bottom of my cohort for prelims. When the O levels came, I thought that's the end of me.

But ...

I prayed everyday that things would get better and He answered my prayers. Not only did my parents become better, my O levels result was 13 points (23 less than prelims). I know it is definitely by God's grace that I passed because I didn't study for the exams. Likewise for my A levels, I did badly. But amazingly, I got a place in university. Still, I couldn't trust God because all my life I've locked myself in my own prison of hurts, unforgiveness and bitterness. I was too disappointed in the people closest to me and whom I respected the most.

The first weekends at WAC, I felt miserable. It wasn't because I felt out of place. But I could hear God asking me why I turned away from him. I was so filled with remorse and shame. I asked God. Why did you lead me back to you again? Are you sure you want me here? I'm so unworthy of you. I didn't trust you wholeheartedly and I've done so many wrong things which I cannot forgive myself of. I'm too undeserving of your love. I am so unworthy.

And then... God answered me through Steven.

To be continued...

...To be continued...

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