The God Who Pursues

By Mei Yan

God may not always be nice to you in order to make you believe in Him and eventually be made into his likeness.

I've been pondering over why God had allowed certain things to happen to me.. And I always wonder why do God allow bad things to befall on good people until I realised that there is no such thing as "good" people because no matter how good we try to be, we still fall short of God's glory, the perfect example.

I believe that, even before I became a Christian, God has been reaching out to me, but I was ignorant of it, as I did not know Him yet. He allows the same thing to happen to me not once but a few times. I used to think a lot and have been questioning God this and that every night that gradually became a habit for me before I can get into my sleep.

Although at that time, I did not know God yet, but deep down in my heart, a truth was etched in my heart that a Creator who created all beings is real. I believe He must have His reasons for everything that He had created or even allowing things to happen to each individual.

I am guilty for the times when I found myself blaming God for the things that He had allowed to take place in my life, and even questioned of His nature of being a loving and just God when such unpleasant events took place in my life.

Till recently, as God slowly revealed and opened my eyes to see, I came to realize that He made and caused certain things to happen in my life so that I will seek for Him even more. By seeking Him, I came to know about Christianity and how He had made the greatest sacrifice for mankind, including me. If those events did not occur, I guess I wouldn't be bothered to even question or know about God. And I am very sure that I would definitely not be who I am now if I do not know Him, and I wouldn't be here today sharing my testimony, testifying of a God who is so real.

Exodus 10:1-2
Then the Lord said to Moses, "Go to Pharaoh, for I have hardened his heart and the hearts of his officials so that I may perform these miraculous signs of mine among them that you may tell your children and grandchildren how I dealt harshly with the Egyptians and how I performed my signs among them, and that you may know that I am the Lord."

Like what God has done in the past when He performed miracles through Moses to Pharaoh, God did the same to me by showing me who He is-the Lord of all creations- through the circumstances I have gone through.