When Was The LAST time YOU struggled?

hmmm why did i ask this question?
i guess its becos i've personally learnt a very big lesson from God these past few weeks.

In all our lives,

most if not, all of us have been through serveral ups and downs.
i am no exception.
in my studies, my relationships with the ppl around me and also
in my walk with God.
and many times whenever i hit a big, huge rock in any situation,
i'll scream out for God and ask Him to deliver me.
i'll pray until something happens, i can FEEL God with me,
i can hear His voice and most importantly

my relationship with Him was real.
however, after an encounter with Him,

when things seem to go back to normalcy,
when my situation or problem has blown over,
i'll forget God.
i'll start depending on my own strengths in situations,
i'll not do my QT (purposely and knowingly)
and give all sorts of excuses

for not spending time with Him.
it can be my lack of sleep, my work, my frens,

my so called need to evangelise with my other friends,

my family, my tv, my computer games, my driving,

my ANYTHING basically.
anything and everything else would be slightly more impt than God.
then when something happens,
i'll start clinging on to God and i'll ask God why He didnt help me,
i'll cry like a baby and then blame EVERYONE else but myself.
then i'll sheepishly go back to God,

ask for His forgiveness and plead with Him to give me another chance...
my point is.

do i have to wait for another big stuggle in my life,

b4 my relationship with Him is ever constant and growing?

must someone die,

or must something REALLY bad happen b4 i go back to my Abba Father?
let's not forget Him, let's not find Him only in times of trouble,
let's love Him as He loved us,

faithful, constant and never ending.
let's not forget what He did for us,
let's be greatful, let us be... His everlasting children...

Lest I forget Gethsamany
Lets I forget Thine agony
Lest I forget Thy love for me
Lead me to calvary...